Sometimes I feel like I blew it when it came to selecting a career.
While I’m doing okay in medicine, I feel like people who get a good education have a chance to have a career that makes them truly happy. While I might be able to tailor my practice to make me happier in the future, I often get the sense that I went down the wrong path entirely. When my daughter talks about what she might want to be someday, I actually feel jealous that she still has so many options.
I should have known this would happen. Science class was never my favorite. When I was in seventh grade, I took a Life Science class and I hated it. When I was in eighth grade, I took earth science and I hated that. Then when I was in ninth grade, I took biology and I hated that.
At that point, I had been considering going into medicine, but I told myself that if I didn’t like my next science class, this was really getting ridiculous. Fortunately, I did like chemistry. Then I didn’t like physics either, but at least I liked chemistry.
When I was in college, I again hated biology. And I hated medical school.
It wasn’t like I never liked anything. I'm not, like, some negative person who never gets any enjoyment out of anything. I liked most of my math and computer science classes. And I always loved my English classes in high school. But somehow I didn’t realize there was a way to make a reasonable career out of that, mostly because all my friends were either getting PhD’s, which I didn’t want, or going into investment banking, which I really didn’t want.
If I had it to do over again, I actually think engineering or actuarial work might have been a good career for me. But at this point, you don’t quit medicine to go into something boring like engineering. People would think I’m nuts. I’d have to quit for a really crazy dream, like becoming a chef. (I love cooking shows. Maybe a possibility??)
Anyway, who knows? Maybe I’d be a thirty-something year old engineer wishing I’d gone to med school?