There are times in many physicians' careers when they do something that they are not proud of, whether because they are overworked, overtired, or just plain burned out.
I have done a few things I am not proud of during my residency, especially during internship. There are days I allow myself to think back on it and I wince and hate myself. Thank God, nobody was ever harmed as a result. But I still hate myself, which is part of why I made sure to find a job that wouldn't put me under so much stress that I would do something stupid ever again.
I am certain I'm not the only one, so I'd like to give you a rare opportunity. If you have done something that you are not proud of during your medical training, please share it ANONYMOUSLY in the comments. Please don't reveal who you are--I don't want to know. And we get enough, like more than 20, I may share one of my own anonymously.
I think it will feel good to get it off your chest and see that we all occasionally do things we're not proud of.